The Notahome | fine art series
This project has been realised during the residency programme of La Saline royale d’Arc-et-Senans – NORA Program – Association des Centres culturels de recontre (ACCR), with the support of the French Ministry of Culture and Communication.
This fine art series – for the first time of my life – dedicated to my own experience and experience of my family. For the last 9 months we changed 10 places of living. They were nice, sometimes even better then our home back in Kyiv. One common thing is that they all were Not A Home. The weird and wicked inner imperative – when you constantly devastated, while smile to others, so that not to be that annoying refugee with own problems, who doesn’t let people around enjoy their life. This inability to think about anything but your home that someone else forced you to leave, this 0% of control of your existence and constant feeling of objefication, inability to read any news except the news about Ukraine, inability even to watch the movie or to listen to the music. Yet you have to pretend that everything is ok, in order to help your kids to adapt, in order to try to adapt yourself. But whatever you do, you constantly, every single second, attached to your home, which is far. This research of ambivalent existence of my family is depict in a series of paintings: family portraits change from date to date, from note home to notahome, the first one in winter 2022, end of February, when we stoped existing, were incapable to smile, to eat and to breath, when we were vanished, and the world was seen through us, through spring 2022, when in April i smiled for the first time in 2 monthes and immediately felt guilty for this smile, through summer 2022, when our kids started to exist again, started to enjoy their life again, however felt faceless in the stranger country, and through autumn and winter 2022, when my daughter every day, as all this year, keep on asking me when we ll finally go back home to Ukraine, and i keep on answering her – «soon». Works will be titled as addresses of the places we were staying.
The paintings are comfortable, happy and easy to wear, as all refugees should be so that not to bother others, until, of course, you read an explication.